You Are The Reason I Hate Leaving

Leaving
 
Everyone’s talkin’ bout where they’d like to bury you, and you’re just staring at us. 
 
You’re alive, you’re still breathing. You’re the reason I hate leaving. You’re so fucking precious it hurts. 
 
& I know your old bones are struggling, and your face is getting grey. 
 
They’re giving you medication, but the pain it won’t go away. 
 
No the pain it won’t go away. 

EVERGREEN

It’s been two years since I held you close in a hotel room we’d never been before. 

I’d do anything to stay there, anything to be alone with you.  

It gets to me when I think back then, in the capital with my best friend. 

Driving on the motorway, you took the roundabout the wrong way. 

 

You said you’d take my name and I’d bare the weight of all your pain. 

 

You look good, you look good darling (Stay next to me) 

And I miss your hands running through my hair (Stay evergreen) 

You look good, you look good right here next to me. 

Cause you and me we’ll stay forever green, evergreen. 

 

Girl you know you turn me upside down, had me falling hard then I hit the ground. 

I miss you, guess I’ll try to forget you. 

I know it’s not your fault how it all turned out, you were working late in an east coast town. 

Still miss you, don’t want to forget you. 

 

You look good, you look good darling (Stay next to me) 

And I miss your hands running through my hair (Stay evergreen) 

You look good, you look good right here next to me. 

Cause you and me we’ll stay forever green, evergreen. 

 

 I can’t give you enough credit on how much you have changed my life, 

and I will always be grateful for that. 

 

Missing you too much. 


1964 
 
I heard your dad was buried, the day before you married. 
Couple weeks before your birthday, the shit you must of carried. 
Didn’t want to write a sad song, cause I know you like the fast ones. 
Sitting in the living room singing, tramps like us we were born to run. 
 
 
And you’ve done your best with us, just look how we’ve grown up. 
 
 
When you told me he passed away, the world it kept on turning. 
People acting like nothing’s changed. 
I think about it everyday, that’s when you started running. 
Holding out for longer days. 
 
 
And you’ve done your best with us, just look how we’ve grown up. 
 
 
You always want the best for us, our hearts are weak but they are full of love. 
And the stories that you tell me, just know they’ll never get boring. 


Polola  
 
Long drives met with the smell of coffee, I’m not a lover but I love it on you.  
I swear I’ll get round to covering that tattoo.  
 
Late nights and the feeling you want me, you’re dancing around in your room. 
You’re playing your pop songs & I’m falling for you.  
 
I never pictured myself in the city girl, but you’re proving me wrong.  
You’re coming to my shows, you’re wearing all my clothes & babe you’re pulling it off.  
I never saw myself in the city girl, but you’re proving me wrong.  
You’re singing at my shows, you’re stealing all my clothes & babe you’re pulling it off. 
 
Two dates in, back when you took me to the ferry and I taught you how to skim those stones. 
You couldn’t park for shit then we laughed about it all the way home.  
 
You played it cool, I played it nervous.  
Flowers in bloom your hair felll perfect. Then we got drunk just like we always knew we would.  
 
I never pictured myself in the city girl, but you’re proving me wrong.  
You’re coming to my shows, you’re wearing all my clothes & babe you’re pulling it off.  
I never saw myself in the city girl, but you’re proving me wrong.  
You’re singing at my shows, you’re stealing all my clothes & babe you’re pulling it off. 
 
Got your hand in mine. The tv’s on for background noise, but you’re sound asleep. & I can’t wait for the morning, cause I don’t wanna leave this bed, don’t wanna leave your side at all.  
 
Got your hand in mine. I’m staring at your friends poster on the wall, but you’re sound asleep. & I can’t wait for the morning, cause I don’t wanna leave this bed, don’t wanna leave your side at all.  
 
Got your hand in mine. The tv’s on for background noise, but you’re sound asleep. & I can’t wait for the morning, cause I don’t wanna leave this bed, don’t wanna leave your side at all.  
 
Got your hand in mine. I’m staring at your friends poster on the wall, but you’re sound asleep. & I can’t wait for the morning, cause I don’t wanna leave this bed, don’t wanna leave your side at all.  


STAY 
 
All the things you told me, a little house and a couple of kids. 
You don’t want them feeling lonely, like you did. 
All I had were flowers, twenty cigs and couple of trains. 
I was getting close to you, I was just hoping you’d stay. 
Hoping you’d stay. 
 
 
You said, you’ve got to get your life on track. 
And all I did was try, never been good at sleeping on my own. 
Truth is, I’m always gonna want you back. 
And all I did was try, I don’t want to die alone. 
 
 
We used to drive for hours, your head was always miles away. 
And I would sing your indie songs, cause no one’s listening. 
I hope you’re getting better, there’s some things that i wish that I said. 
I was there for your mental health, I’m still missing you everyday. 
Everyday. 
 
 
And all I did was try, I don’t want to die alone. 
 
 
I miss loving you and your chin, the way it’s always quivering. 
I was always here to help, I miss the way your body felt. 
It’s the little things I’m missing, the freckles that’s on your skin. 
And all I did was try, I don’t want to die alone. 


Gentle 
 
It’s been 2 months since we buried you, but your water bowls not moved an inch.  
& I swear I keep hearing you, breathing heavy in your sleep like you did.  
 
I cut some hair from your chest before I kissed you goodbye in the garden.  
Then the vets turned up, you were confused. 
We were all crying.  
 
You know I held your paw as I watched you slip,  
fed you your favourite ice cream before you took your last breath. 
 
I find myself in your spot, your one & only retreat.  
I miss the scent that you left, along with that part of me.  
 
I know you’re missing me too, just know I’ll see you again. 
I’ll hear your tail hit the floor, just before I walk in. 
 
You know I held your paw as I watched you slip,  
fed you your favourite ice cream before you took your last breath. 
 
If I had the chance when they lay me to rest.  
I’d put myself next to you, so you could sleep on my chest. Just like you did, back when you were a pup.  
 
If I had the choice, I’d do it over again.  
Pizza crusts & stuffed toys, then we’d make use of those legs. I would take you to the beach, back where you found your feet.  
 
I’ve never seen mum cry the way she did that day. Dad spent hours with you, I couldn’t look away. Your pain was evident, but boy you’d never complain.  
 
I still talk to you before I fall asleep, I touch your photos sometimes just before I leave. I’d do anything to hear your paws walk in on me.  
Yeah, I’d do anything to hear your paws walk in on me.