Through Love & Death, You're All I Have Left

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I'm getting used to this empty bed, I'm still finding hair clips that you left.
It's been eight long months, since I've seen your face.

I find it hard to believe it was time well spent.
You turned a blind eye when you opened your legs.
You blamed the alcohol, but that don't wash off on me.
It wasn't alcohol that got you down on your knees.

She'll wear my t-shirts so much better than you, a blank canvas,
And fill the empty space in my room, the space that you left.
We'll spin records from our favourite bands.
Your graduation for the seventeenth time.

I pictured you in an empty bed, and you'd be finding comfort in the notes I left.
You're far from lonely girl, you’re fucking him instead.

I guess you've got round to taking those photos down, in your room of me and you. I felt sick at the thought of you moving on.

She'll wear my t-shirts so much better than you, a blank canvas,
And fill the empty space in my room, the space that you left.
We'll spin records from our favourite bands.
Your graduation for the seventeenth time.



IN BETWEEN DAYS

Those days, they flew right in
and no one prepares you to lose a friend.
People come and go I’m getting used to it.
I’ve had walls, they closed me in
and if I’m honest I am struggling to breathe again
For what it's worth babe, I gave you everything.

I don't mind, you moving on
but I don't like, how it was done

Tell me, was it worth it?
A few cheap nights over something you called perfect.
I hope you, are doing better than me.
Am I the reason you were cheating?
You're the reason I can't sleep

Do you remember when you lied to my fucking face?
I lost track of the times I tried but you turned away.
I'm doing better, without you.
Drag it down on you helped me see it through

Tell me, was it worth it?
A few cheap nights over something you called perfect.
I hope you, are doing better than me.
Am I the reason you were cheating?
You're the reason I can't sleep

I still here those words ringing in my ear,
And there's nothing more than I want for them to disappear



DOCUMENTARIES

I miss the cold, I miss my winter clothes.
Watching creepy documentaries on my own.
My single bed never felt this good without you.

It took a while, still getting over you.
Took our pictures out the frames in my bedroom.
I'll be fine on my own I'll be fine, getting used to sleeping alone.

What the hell am I holding onto, we couldn't keep our heads above the water.
You dragged my name down to the floor, you left my clothes packed at your door.

What the hell am I holding onto, we couldn’t keep our heads above the water.
Don’t wanna do this anymore, what am I holding on for.

I wasn’t ready, I wasn’t ready for this.
I miss your family and all the shit that we did.
Wasting Sunday’s away in your bedroom, the smell of sex mixed in with your perfume.

You should’ve told me, we could’ve worked on this.
I’m getting by now, it’s just the little things.
The way we met halfway before we said goodnight.
I’d press my lips to your forehead before you turned off the lights.

What the hell am I holding onto, we couldn't keep our heads above the water.
You dragged my name down to the floor, you left my clothes packed at your door.

What the hell am I holding onto, we couldn’t keep our heads above the water.
Don’t wanna do this anymore, what am I holding on for.
What the hell am I holding onto, we couldn't keep our heads above the water.
You dragged my name down to the floor, you left my clothes packed at your door.

What the hell am I holding onto, we couldn’t keep our heads above the water.
Don’t wanna do this anymore, what am I holding on for.



SUNDAY CLUB

It’s three in the morning, and I’ve been thinking how things used to be.
Drinking until we’re drunk, now all my friends are getting married.
Shauny’s on the same boat, his relationship ended a year ago.
And I was there for him like he was for me.

Everything will be alright, and I’ll be there in the meantime.
Cause I know how hard it is to be alone.
Everything will be just fine, and I’ll be right by your side.
We can start a gang and call it Sunday Club.

It’s two in the morning, and I’ve been thinking back to twenty three.
When we were both in love, with the girls we thought we’d marry.
And now we’re on the same boat, I spend most week nights at your parents home.
I was there for you, like you were for me.

Everything will be alright, and I’ll be there in the meantime.
Cause I know how hard it is to be alone.
Everything will be just fine, and I’ll be right by your side.
We can start a gang and call it Sunday Club.

I told I’d be there when things got grey,
I bet your parents are sick of seeing me every day.
Trust me everything’s gonna be okay,
Phoebe’s gonna song the blues away.

Everything will be alright, and I’ll be there in the meantime.
Cause I know how hard it is to be alone.
Everything will be just fine, and I’ll be right by your side.
We can start a gang and call it Sunday Club.



TAMPA BAY

I’m so sorry for the shit I put you through, and all the times I said I’d change, just for you.
It’s never easy leaving someone behind, I guess moving on will take some time.

Tell your parents I will miss them when I leave.
I’ll think of Miller every day, every fucking week.
I hope she grows up to be just like you, tell her I’m doing fine and Shaun misses you.

Can I hold your hand the same way I did, when I first kissed you.
Lay your head down on my chest, we’ll close our eyes and fall asleep soon.

Three years and I’m history, convinced myself that we were meant to be.
We said you’d turn twenty one, not a day older, I’d buy a ring then we’d turn the page over.
Planned to leave for the USA, travel the coast head for Tampa Bay.
It was set in stone that we’d brave the bad weather.
I’ll go myself since we’re not together.

It’s hit me hard that you don’t want me anymore.
I’m losing sleep cause when it rains it fucking pours.
My eyes are heavy and I’m feeling numb, I got our date tattooed I’ve yet to tell my mum.
I’ll change the subject every time your names brought up.
Avoid the questions I get asked, say it’s just hard luck.
I’ll put a face on just to cover the truth.
They can probably tell that I’m missing you.

Can I hold your hand the same way I did, when I first kissed you.
Lay your head down on my chest, we’ll close our eyes and fall asleep soon.

Three years and I’m history, convinced myself that we were meant to be.
We said you’d turn twenty one, not a day older, I’d buy a ring then we’d turn the page over.
Planned to leave for the USA, travel the coast head for Tampa Bay.
It was set in stone that we’d brave the bad weather.
I’ll go myself since we’re not together.

Can I hold your hand the same way I did, when I first kissed you.
Lay your head down on my chest, we’ll close our eyes and fall asleep soon.



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Through love and death, you’re all I have left.



SUBBUTEO

Four years gone you have a family now, who would of thought you’d turn your life around?
I know it’s different when you’re with them, but you’re getting older now.
As I grew older, I put our loved ones in the ground.

When the drugs took you away, you left me on my own that day.

Where did they go? Playing subbuteo.
I miss those days, I miss those days.

And there you go, running away again.
Said you were too cool for school and you didn’t need it.
Do you remember when grandad died, and the day you got thrown out?
You missed the funeral, I bet he wanted you around.

When the drugs took you away, you left me on my own that day.

Where did they go? Playing subbuteo.
I miss those days, I miss those days.



KIT

Seen your face around town but I never really knew you.
I wish I introduced myself before you took your life.
I can't help but wonder what you went through.
It seems pathetic but I think of you some nights.

I've seen your friends posting pictures of you now and again, reminding everyone what you meant to them, and it breaks my heart every time your names brought up.

We played a show the same day you were put in the ground.
Jamie said a few words to an emotional crowd.
We dedicated a song to you, they sang every word.

It’s not fair, you felt you had to leave.
You were seventeen and in a place you didn’t wanna be.
It’s not fair, you couldn’t find relief.
You were just a kid, no one expected this teenage misery.

Curiosity got the better of me, I spoke with two of your friends about your death last week.
Turns out I’m into all your favourite bands, we could’ve talked about them given half the chance.

And if there is a heaven, there’ll be a space for you.
I’ve fallen out with God, he don’t deserve you.

It’s not fair, you felt you had to leave.
You were seventeen and in a place you didn’t want to be.
It’s not fair, you couldn’t find relief.
You were just a kid, no one expected this teenage misery.

You were seventeen and in a place you didn’t want to be.



91’

I don’t think I was ready, I don’t think anyone was.
Every time I hear your name I think of you but it’s not enough.
It’s been over eight years now, still November gets so cold.
And it’s killing me, they’ll never see you growing old.

I still remember all the late nights, and all of the street fights.
Your badly drawn on tattoo, the fake I.D. You made in your bedroom.
I still remember all the late nights, and all of the street fights.
Don’t know what I’m gonna do, but I’ll do it all for you.

I don’t think I was ready, smallest casket that I’d ever seen.
Josh it don’t look good on you, more than your girlfriends skinny jeans.
And I wish I was there for you, more than I could’ve been.
On the worst days, I’m struggling.

I still remember all the late nights, and all of the street fights.
Your badly drawn on tattoo, the fake I.D. You made in your bedroom.
I still remember all the late nights, and all of the street fights.
Don’t know what I’m gonna do, but I’ll do it all for you.



THROUGH LOVE AND DEATH

Do you remember when I first met you I was drunk, asked for your number cause I heard you played the drums.
Friend of a friend still can’t believe I’m six years older than you.

My parents told me what happened to your dad.
You wear his clothes to practice, god it breaks my heart.
We’d love to talk about him, but we don’t know where to start.

I’m twenty six and I’m half the man, still
got both my parents yet you’ve lost your dad.
Just turned eighteen when you heard those words and I’m sure as hell that it still hurts.
I wish I knew you then back when he passed away, cause we’d have been there for you through your darkest days.
There’s an empty space for him
at every show, he’s the silhouette in the front row.

Do you remember the funeral, do you remember that day,
Is it fresh like the flowers, the ones that decorated his name.
Through love and death, you’re all
I have left.

Do you remember the funeral, do you remember that day,
Is it fresh like the flowers, the ones that decorated his name.
Through love and death, you’re all
I have left.

I heard you carried his casket, now you carry his name.
You keep his medication box in a safe place.
He never made it to your sister’s weddings.
I’m not a God man, but I believe in heaven.
Yeah I believe in heaven.
God I believe in heaven.

Do you remember the funeral, do you remember that day,
Is it fresh like the flowers, the ones that decorated his name.
Through love and death, you’re all
I have left.

Do you remember the funeral, do you remember that day,
Is it fresh like the flowers, the ones that decorated his name.
Through love and death, you’re all
I have left.

Through love and death, you’re all I have left.
Through love and death, you’re all I have left.